log for my dreams and reoccurring themes within them
march 7th, 2021
i saw an angel who led me by my hand to a open window, and told me to jump with her. she had the appearance of a young girl, but for some reason i kept thinking she was my mother.
february 2nd, 2021
i was running away from something, and i had to leave my father behind. i cried. the same father i resent, i cried for
january 27th, 2021
i was the lead in a play. i enjoyed myself.
january 25th, 2021
i was in a house, maggots and larvae were growing on the walls. i was begging my father to do something, but suddenly i coughed up balls of maggots. i can still feel the gummy texture.
november 2nd, 2020
i had a dream that i was crowned a king, and boba my queen. i remember a reporter mocking me, then ordering him to be executed. i visited the reporter later while he was imprisoned, telling him i was only toying with him and i would let him go. i would make a great king.
october 25th, 2020
i had a dream that i met someone and immediately fell in love with them, even though physically they werent my type. it was not someone i recognize in waking life, but they felt so familiar.
october 24th, 2020
i had a dream i was... with boba. it was... pleasant to say the least...
september 8th, 2020
i was back at the ward. i kept trying to escape, but they found me everytime.
may 23rd, 2020;
me and mother...
together. i miss her
may 10th, 2020;
the kids who used to mock me were mocking me again. i couldn't make out their faces, but i knew. then i was in a class, and a video about current celebrities was being shown. i tried to make a joke about not caring or something along those lines. nobody laughed. instead, someone told me to shut up. they all laughed at that. i was suddenly in the shower, crying. i remember feeling odd and slowly realizing i was in a dream because i can't remember the last time i could actually work up the muscles in my face to produce a tear. then, someone who felt familiar found me, and picked me up to cradle me like a child, i couldn't make out his face, but i knew it was him. my eternal love.